Dengan ini ku tamat kan bacaan ku, menari ballet~

heelleewwww~ and aslkum to all (yang sudi membaca blog ku) or u guys have nothing to do...to kill time main click2 the links haha. anywys....today seems to be good fine day...cuaca is not that fanas and not that vindy. in fact its not windy....ku lihat dedaunan kat luar atu tahan2 saja. its 830 in the morning. manakala most of my companions tidak kira d brunei or orang sini, masih lagi membulati mata. manakala aku...yang sesungguh nya rajin bagai kan budak baik datang ke uni.

actually i planned to wake up at 3 in the morning but then...due to the physiological reason (nda cukup tdor)....aku sambung beauty sleep ku til 6 in the morning. got up, had a shower...got dressed...lil of breakfast...zoom to the bus stop. i thought we're the only group thats gonna have exam on saturday...kali nya ada lagi orang awal, lebih terawal daripada kediaku. perhaps their gonna start at 830 in the morning.

guess what, this is my last exam for the year of 2007. alhamdulilah...im not saying the exam was that walk in the park...in fact...well...exam apa yang senang sangat. (to all those braniacs and geniuses out there, shhhhh). of course lah those yang senang...belajar for it ke tahap extreme. pasal belajar to the extreme kehkehkeh, ada this one drama malaysia yang ku lihat bak then, he was in the library and studying. the next thing happened...gila babi tia. whats gila babi? nda ku tau ah apa in medical term...Crazy Pig? or Hallucinating Pig? or Mad Warthog? choose..hahahaha
pasal atu kali, subconsciously...kan belajar to the extreme, im not into that. takut ku lai~.

Whats New Boh?!?! Nothing Just Virus In You~!

Assalam'kum guys....

masa atu ada ku berjanji kan post new things, especially gambar-gambar raya tahun 2007 and Linkin Park Concert...Jeez, banyak jua janji ku atu. but i did say Insya allah back then...kalau tak percaya pegilah tengok.

awu nya mu, the internet conneciton back home dah pun laju...pelalai jua aku atu...assiiikk dengan download lagu-lagu yang terbaru untuk mp3 ku. sampai ke tahap asik menonggeng ku download lagu from internet....walaupun busy belajar jua tatkala atu. maklum lah..hidup ini mesti ber multitasking....kalau tak..banyak masa terbuang. sebenarnya masa ani aku dah nak kan review the lectures for the exam that im going to do at 130pm nanti. at the moment it just turned 9am. rajin kan aku atu~. rajin hantap nya mu.

aku sunyi dari MSN, blog ku nda lagi terupdate....and facebook ku pun nda ku berbunyi....all of that indicate that my computer slash laptop are down people!. the last thing i did (surfing) before it went into coma, i clicked the video inside of facebook. perhaps theres a link that goes somewhere...invited that damn viruses. jeez...whats with me with virus. ada-ada saja. so down kan tu...since nda lama lagi ku kan balik ke brunei!!! *Grinning so wiide~* i would get it fixed there saja. last tuesday that was 2 days ago..did my first exam paper, now today, is the second. nda lama lagi im going to be a free man.....free as a bird.....apakan. cawie~.

without my computer, to make things even worse....without internet.....BUNTU kepala ku lai~...wats buntu? i know theres a specific word for that in dictionary....but i dont bother to open up one at the moment :P , luckily i can and able to charge my mp3 without any problem. kalau ada....im gonna be crraazzieeee!

perhaps pagi saturday lagi ku update wats going one with me during this week..before aku balik hehehehe. till then.....may the force be with you!!!!

aslam'kum

Keboringan ku yang teramat!!! at the moment, aku berada di uni planning to enroll for the second year first semester. turned out that two well three of what i intended to enroll are full. even 53 minutes later, keep recheck the courses and still it is full. *checking again* yeap full masih.

so aku bored kat sini semantara menunggu kawan ku yang kami berjanji nak enrolling sama-sama. sedih jua hari ani, mendung memanjang je. boring...boring. the thing that i do not like when it the day seems to be cloudy...when it rains. basah saja atu nda ku suka..sejuk-sejuk seka :D tapi...basahness....become my hateness.

apa kukan hias post ku kali ani. about my studying? yeah..about that..i am suppose to be studying at home, tapi aku ke uni coz the connection are quite str8 compare kat d rumah so ani tah ku d uni ani. bebalik kepada studying...try to...my focus seems to be scattered all over the place. sometimes on the 18th lah...sometimes...on the 6th, 8th and 10th tia. sometimes....at the present lah...maybe and perhaps that is the problem cause i cant retain focus at one place. if i hold it down..somehow..it gives me headache. argh...arrgghh....arrgghghhhhhhh (apakan!?)

bah nanti tah lagi...no pix again hahahaha

Cerita Kanak-kanak yang telah di rejek kerana masalah IMBUHAN

Senang bagi ku untuk mengakhiri hayat ku pada tatkala ini. akal fikiran ku yang rasional entah kemana menghilang, bagaikan tiada ada hari esok untuk ku lagi.

Rasa sakit hatiku masih ku terasa, bagaikan luka dihiris seribu kali. tubuh ku terasa kedinginan walau aku terasa peluh dari dahi ku terjatuh ke tangan ku yang tergetar-getar. aku duduk seketika disudut bilik ku, yang kelihatan jauh dari dunia luar. bayangan mu berkali-kali bermain di fikiran ku. senyuman manis mu, sentuhan mu dan pandangan mata mu....namun bukan kepada ku...senyuman yang dahulu kau ikhlas kan kepada ku, sentuhan yang kau kata hanya untuk ku...tidak...tidak ku lagi terdaya membayang kan semuanya itu tatkala kau dengan orang lain. ku peluk kaki dan tubuh ku, seakan melindungi ku dari bahaya dunia luar. namun, sudah terlambat...hirisan hatiku masih pedih.

pergi ambil pisau, hiris di pergelangan tanganku...mungkin akan meredakan kesakitan hatiku...TIDAK...mungkin telan beberapa pil ubat akan membuat kesakitan ku jauh menghilang

...semua kata-kata fikiran ku yang tidak ku sangka akan ku terfikir. berulang-ulang kali ia berkata memenuh kan akan fikiran ku, melemas kan akal fikiran ku. namun, terdengar satu suara yang jauh dalam fikiran ku yang berkata, JANGAN! ingat kan tuhan...kemana perginya iman ku!!! fikiran ku membelah kepala ku, sakitnya tidak ku tahan.

tidak kah kau tahu, tatkala ini...engkaulah satu-satunya yang ku sayang akan menyelamat kan aku, namun semua ini berpunca dengan kau. apa salah ku hingga kau sanggup membuat demikian kepada ku!! ku cuba mencari jawapan, namun semua kata-kata yang bernaung didalam kepala ku membuat ku lemas, tidak terdaya ku berfikir waras. aku mesti mencari jalan untuk menghentikan naungan itu...Henti! Henti! HENTI!!!

naungan masih melemas kan ku, bayangan botol-botol pil bermain d fikiran ku. ada kah itu satu-satu caranya? ku berdiri dan menuju ke dalam tandas dan mengambil ubat pil dalam kabinet dalam bilik mandi. aku muncul depan ku sebaik ku tutup kabinet ubat. apa yang ku nampak? aku....aku....aku.....

Movie Marathon, how far do i have to run for that event?

These were the three currently showing movies that me and Z watched today, the 28th October. although both of us were tired from the openhouse event last night. with determination of enjoying the last day of 'weekend' (thats me) and with freakness for movie in cinema (thats Z) we went and enjoyed the movies.

first at 255 pm, we saw SAW 4, in my opinion, as the before saw sequels movies...its all about, trying to teach others by cherish their own life, to teach an aspect of life with torture and all that gist. it is all suspense, violence and some gross scenes to me. during the early scenes of the movie when the coroner (the guy which did the post postmortem for the someones body), i was so at the edge, waiting for his body leaps into life. then the twist of the plot where i was not too bother to remember the plot from all three previous movies.

at 435 pm, we straight to watch Good Luck Chuck, the first half of the movie it has high level of comedy scenes...then approaching in the middle of it, there was not many of comedy level compare to early part, but it is still funny though. like the part where Chuck's personal assistance, Reeba?! appraoched him to get some luck for her which means she have to sleep with her. she jumped on him and said, that Chuck does not have to do anything and no need to open his eyes through out the 'copulate' session with her. she also said to him that if he would like to imagine someone else pretty instead of her during that time. he calmed down and said to her, no...he would like to think about her at that time. isnt that sweet. oh well....to conclude here, its a nice movie.

then at 900 pm, again we went to the last marathon movie of ours, which was waitress, which if you ask Z about it, she would say it was okay and quite slow. but for me, it was nice movie and sweet too. like the way the shots have been taken during the film and plot was decent and nice. the story was sweet. very very chick flick.

Fast as a flash.....Fast as McD....SUPERFAST!

A quick post......IM BORED!!!!

hahahaha

Blast of the space....comes billion of stars and planets. Holy Smokey...isnt that BIG BANG Theory?!?!

I am so annoyed at the moment with how gay have my connection have become. not that aku ada something against with gay people hahaha...i bet some of my friends are anyways...connection of internet are being so slow it is hard for me upload something specially clips. now my connection sometimes disconnect itself saying limited connection something something. whateva dude...got fed up of it.

i got a splitting headache today, perhaps my beauty sleep is not enough last night, as i got up early this morning to go to uni. but then this afternoon, i took a nap which at first i thought it would be like a twenty minutes nap...if i am not mistaken, i fell asleep around 2 ish and woke up around 5, hahaha how bad was my headache huh. from there, god knows what i did since then...nothing productive today...well i did do my research at uni this morning...so i could say that that was a productive thing huh.

now, i am not in a mood to do anything...all i want to do is to lay on my bed and watch those comics that i have downloaded from the net. to watch movies? dvds? surfing internet (argh...connection)? nope...none of that i guess..this laziness have to go...and tomorrow morning i would get rid of it...how...i got my own way hehehe.

oh ooo...feels like to post something here....perhaps later when i am on the bed and chilling. not now...the way i sit at the moment...my aching back, argh!

Linkin park?! apa ke benda? taman kat kawasan mana tu?

YYYAARARRGHH!!! best! awesome! rock! the gig was definitely worth it. walaupun dah few months i bought the ticket and waited for it, definitely worth it. oh apa dia...apa yang ku cakap ani? Linkin Park Concert lah.

me and dibster pergi ke Boondall, Brisbane entertainment center yesterday around 5:07 to see the gig....jeeeezzz syok eh. tetamu undangan nya for the concert was chris cornell, well...his shows kinda...slow and nda brapa....anywys im not in da mood to details everything abt last nite...insya allah next time i wud post the real post (what?!!?) and post some pictures insya allah some clips...awu ada ku record video...cccoooooolll.....especially What i've done score. so syok syok syok 100X.

ani pun mengharap kan the sexual orientation of my internet to str8....coz its so lambat at the moment. and missing home so bad at the moment. oh well...off to uni....

ROCK ON PeePZ!!!

Teka lagu apa yang aku menyanyi ni????

sesungguh nya aku benar2 mahu untuk beradu. tetapi apakan daya ku, mata ku belum mahu lagi tutup. walaupun ku tahu yang hari esok, aku akan hendak terjaga pada waktu yang awal. mengapa sungguh bebal mataku untuk pejam.

some randomness perhaps buat ku tertidur kali...let see...

nada awan arah ribut ku
biar tia hujan
aku terabang menjadi pemes (eh eh)
mari kebawah dengan c Dow Jones
kalau mendung hari, tani mengilang
tani rocafella (eheh)
ia terabang tinggi dari cuaca
dan ia rok lagi bisai
kau tau aku
ku sangka kan hujan hari
menyusun chips untuk hari hujan nanti (eh eh)
Jai lelaki hujan sudah balik dengan cik molek
Rihanna mana ko kan?

ko dahulunya ada hati ku
dan kita takkan pernah berjauhan
walaupun di dalam majalah
namun kau masih bintang ku
sayang, sebab dalam kegelapan
ko boleh liat sinaran kereta
masa atu tah ko guna kan aku
dengan ko selalu ku berkongsi
sebab

ketika matahari bersinar
tani bersinar sama sama
aku brtahu ko yang aku d sini untuk selamanya
ku kata sentiasa menjadi kawanmu
ku bersumpah
ku bersama mu untuk selamanya
sekarang hujan sehujan nya
tahu lah yang tani masih mempunyai sesama
ko boleh berdiri di bwah payungku
ko boleh berdiri di bwah payungku
ko boleh berdiri di bwah payungku
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
bawah payung ku
(ella ella eh eh eh)
bawah payung ku
(ella ella eh eh eh)
bawah payung ku
(ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

well balum lagi kan tdor..tapi usulnya its getting there though. apa lagi kan ku buat. analyse the song...its basically about two person yang telah menunggu bas kat bas stop. punya lah lama dia orang menunggu..bas tak lagi timbul2. mungkin hari tu dia orang tunggu bas tu..hari ahad kot. coz kan schedule bas hari ahad lambat macam dah nak mati. anywys. tunggu punya tunggu, hujan pulak. sorang dari mereka je yang bawak payung..yang sorang tu bawak entah apa kat dalam beg dia. so dia pun beritahu kat yang sorang tu yang takde payung tu yang dia boleh share dgn dia payung dia. itu baru tafsiran sedikit je. belum lagi mendalam. nanti lah ye aku tafsir sedalam-dalamnya.

kalau kamu nak menyanyi lagu tu versi melayu...nyanyu lah kau orang..lantak je...

Kalau asap tu makanan jin....siapa pulak makan tempoyak?

Masih ku ingat, pada seketika dahulu a friend of mine offered me a cigarette and ask me, have i ever tried to smoke once" then aku jawap what i always respond to such question, "inda ku mau...sigup kampung lagi nda ku memandai...apa lagi sigup benar". then ia pun again persuade me to take at least one puff out of it. it is not that i have things against smoker or smoke....peduli lah durang yang ber sigup atu. its their problem and not mine. as long durang nda somehow mengait kan aku kepada masalah durang with smoking, thats fine by me. its just that...prinsip hidup ku, salah satu of them smoke is a big no no for me. thats where i drew the line, by not taking or even touching a lighting cigar. bukan nya ku takut...dengan izin Nya, satu hari kalau ia men takdir kan aku bersigup...i wud. but so far alhamdulilah aku stay away from it.

aku paling nda suka kalau orang somehow...memaksa aku into doing those stuff yang aku nda suka, as i given u an example. i know smoking looks cool and even rugged. tapi, please...looking good and rugged which leads to health problems...no way boi~. baik ku membeli G*Star jeans d queen street dengan duit sigup atu....lagi kacak and cool olehnya. anywys, aku sesuka sangat tapi nanti lah ku membali that jeans.

back to cigarette thing, oh yeah....kalau any of u guys...give me at least one...at least ONE reason yang bebanar...(thinking how to emphasize banar)...valid and reasonable to me...i wud take a puff out of lighted cigar. i know...people who dont smoke do get lung cancer despite durang inda smoke. atu dah takdir nya kena dapat such disease. i just wanna lead my life to the fullest.

been encounter with few people that seems addicted to it. asalkan jumpa or seen people smoking...dui ma...ingin ku kan bersigup. to me thats not an attractive thing to me. its much more like a masalah to me. thats why nda ku pegang a cigarette. addiction...i do have addiction at the moment. tapi....aku mesti bangun pagi for that. i think i wanna try a new things lah. i know a place where i can do it in peaceful hahaha. hint...its in a park somewhere near here.

baby moon nampak? moon baby...where? up there...tuuuu~

hey hey hey...im back...ku mulai post ini dengan bismillah. kerana dengan Izin nya, somehow i managed to find 'space' in my laptop to transfer all the pictures and clips from my phone. there is another issue that im gonna face with, speed of my internet. i reckon the download quota of it dah nak abis dah well actually its so abis. so the upload of the clips are gonna be a pain to me. ugh. but ko punya pasal...dengan sesudi-sudi nya aku membuat post ani and taruh clips in it.

let start the post people! roll out!

for the last of ramadhan, K Syamun decided to have bersungkai bersama2 with all the bruneians. jeez let me see if i able to recall what i did that day. oh yeah now i remember. that friday petang...i just had my debate assignment which surprisingly turned out to be a okay. after that aku sesungguh nya merasakan bebanan yang berat dari pikul ku telah hilang hahaha, im trying to say here it was a big relief to get that over with. then got back home and sembahyang d UQ. after that around 345, i decided to went out untuk dengani N membeli some of her stationary kat Big W in the city. since that day K syamun jua mmemanggil ke rumah nya untuk bersungkai bersama-sama. N and i tunggu saja c Ina d city to go together ke event. yang lain tak berlaku sebab ada banyak assignment.

so at first agak sesat dengan jalan nya. masa atu jua, semasa mencari jalan...agak nya kami jumpa a bruneian guy along the way. kan tegur takut salah orang hahaha...tapi nya c ina pun cakap she thought the same thing. but since i was on the phone with k syamun...nda tah ku menagur.

anywys...akhir nya dengan kemahiran keberadaan pola bumi melalui membaca tanda2 alam ku dan kebijaksanaan membaca nama2 kedai, akhirnya aku tertulus jugak akan tampat tujuan kami.
dat nite we had a fun gathering. everyone was there i guess....well not anyone lah nevertheless we had a great time. there was auntie rohani and family, GU people, durang Wang Lim (lurus kah? i think i got this from ur facebook Wang E....i called u Wangi saja ah...harum jua hahaha). play some cards and things.

makanan nya...mmm...nyaman...we got curry ayam, ayam masak merah, rice cuisine from iran...hey wait a minute...ave i posted the same event? i think i did. anywys...i like the pasta as well..!

thanx to the imam of the nite...imam Amir, kerana sudi men-takbir kan raya that nite. aku hehehe nda khatam skulah ugama ku hahah just kidding. and dat nite jua the gurls menggulung popia damit.

If the house is open during the open house event...where have all the atap have gone? gone with the wind, perhaps?

it was Sunday, at first i was planning to go to the city. but first i decided to call my family up. tau tau lah...rindu kan hari ni hari raya yang kedua. i was happy to hear my family voice that morning.

so masa aku dah nak turun ke bawah bilik saya...a fren of mine msg me up asking me what was i doing dat morning....so talk punya talk. we have decided to watch resident evil. ceta yang panjang, di pendek kan. Z, Dibs and i went to Indroo and watched it.

it was a good i guess, not too bad.

then after that we went to coffee club to have some snack i guess.

selepas itu we, Z, Fifi, Ina and i, decided to go to one of the open house which 'open' today which was DK, K Mahani and Amir s' place. very syok and very nyaman the menu. not regretting to datang. too bad we datang akhir and dont have the chance to mingle around a lot. nevertheless we had a good time over there...plus..lawa the place. there was this nasi which is so nyaman. satay dagind DK nyaman ku suka brabiss.

then after that....went to Bushu for beraya ing. so there were Bushu, Bushuboy, Naqiyah, Rina, Sarah, Fifi, Z, Ina and aku. which we just hang around and doing some syok stuff. of course the main focus of that nite would be naqiyah. we played with her puzzle board, cat the doggie bone and magic (ina pro at this). over there we had some kuih batik, mor, some layer cakes, and some snack as well. nevertheless (use this word a lot huh) we had a blast time. and also we played Saddam and Kua/Tui.

masa d bushu jua we watched some karoake clip from vcd. it was those karaoke version clip which are so cawie slalunya. macam the rejects of acting world they hired to make the clip.

" masculine make-up" the word that i quote from the event at bushu. because there this gurl which startled Rina because of her manly makeup. Sarah said the makeup artist shud be fired and be banned from making over others facial.

aarghhh....marah ku eeeh.....nah carik ku punya baju.....hijau tia badan ku. tukar tia ku jadi HULK!

sory, it takes me a while to post up a new pictures and new videos that i got from the first day of Eid di brisbane. well it was my first beraya d kota brissy, since (i have told this to number of orang dah) last year aku sempat beraya d Brunei. walaupun ku started my education year di brisbane in 2006 dah.

my laptop memory is Effing full coz all the documents and videos that i have saved in my c drive. jangan macam2 pikir...nda ada porn ku taruh dalam computer ani hahaha....i know u guys wud say, mengapa tia tarus2 pikir macamiatu. i know who wud thought such of thing. anwys kan taruh video dalam my laptop from my mobile phone pun a bit tedious and made me to think twice.

but insya allah i wud figure out around this problem and going post some of the pix as well some of the videos in the bloggering. cool. apa lagi ah

nanti lah ku talk about my raya so far. aight

aslkum

Pok amai2 belalang kupu2...tepuk adik pandai...nanti dapat upah mobile...mobile?!?!?!

Keinginan...
ingin ku bersama mendengar akan takbir aidilfitri,
apabila ibu ku membanguni ku dari tidur yang lena
ingin ku bersama ayahku,
pergi bersama melakukan solat dipagi yang hening
ingin ku mengucup tanda ampun,
pada kedua tangan dan dahi ayahku
ingin ku mengucup tanda sayang
tangan ibuku yang telah mendidik ku menjadikan ku siapa diriku kini
ingin ku berada di samping keluarga
dan menjamu hidangan pagi di aidilfitri
keinginan...

mamy..mengapa jubur baby tu kat iklan tu tak kena censored? tak kira explicit ke tu?

been listening to Radio Brunei particularly Pelangi FM during puasa ani, just to overcome my homesickness yang semakin menjelar di hati membawa kesayuan di hening aidilfitri. it comes to me the sacrifices that i have made just to broaden my knowledge for a brighter, as neon bulb, future. oh well.

back to the story, kan waktu ni, infact hari ni kat brunei dah nak tengok anak brunei (the sighting of the crescent moon), pelangi kerap memainkan kalau tak lagu raya...iklan raya. then theres this commercial about drink. not sure exactly whats the drink are, something ali cafe. it would on air so often that aku pun dah naleh nak dgr. selalunya kalau time2 raya ni...orang akan hidang minuman yang bermacam2....untuk kanak2, bebudak remaja, dan orang yang berumur 30 an kebawah yang positive tidak menghidapi kencing manis....mereka kemungkinan besar akan minum air yang manis, bergas, dan bubbly. these drinks would likely to come in bottle and tin can size. kalau dia orang tu orang dekat macam kengkawan ke...mahupun saudara mara...besar kemungkinan satu botol di hidang. taulah kan nak duduk lama2...nak bersembang dan bertanya khabr yang lain. dan untuk orang tua, dan orang yang tidak kira umur yang positive menghidapi kencing manis pulak...besar kemungkinan mintak air teh takde gula, teh ada gula, coffee ada susu, coffee hitam dan yang sebaik-baik nya..air suam/kosong.


aduh melarat pulak. kembali kepada iklan kat pelangi FM, orang sekarang ni pasti akan membuat satu remark yg asalnya dari iklan tersebut...."ade tak ali cafe?" im pretty sure of it hahaha. kalau salah pun takpe. lihat lah nanti. kalau tak tahun ni...tahun depan kot. orang akan masuk and as they gonna serve drinks or asking what drink do they want...they wud go..."ade tak ali cafe?" hahahah. memain je.

lagi satu....ni tentang iklan fruit tea pulak. tapi kali ini, commercial dia buat aku sungguh bangga dengan perspektif budak ni. kalau tak salah saya..sekumpulan budak beraya masuk ke rumah kawan dia...then anak ni served minuman fruit tea. with all fruit tea being in a new package i reckon...so they became excited. then one of the budak said...ade yang kurang manis tak?...ade ni yang blackberry. tak bangga aku dibuat nya. beritahu aku..budak mana yang tak suka barang makanan yang manis? bakal saja orang tua nya melarang and kencing manis budak tu...aku sure 100% kalau di taruh saja depan nya abis d rangkul nya. tapi ni tak....dia prefer yang kurang manis. bangga...pasti parents budak tu sungguh bangga kerna pintar nya budak mereka tahap professor dalam food nutrition.

hari ni brunei dah nak subuk anak bulan as i told u before. i think im gonna call home for a while nanti lah. saja nak tanya dapat tengok ke tak anak bulan dia. ok lah setakat ni je...aslkum warah matullahi wabarakatuh

Kokokan ayam jantan memecah sunyi hening d subuh hari, dah sembahyang subuh ke tak budak ni????

Sekarang ni aku tengah berada kat dalam commonuse computing kat Griffith Uni, kerna aku ada group meeting pukul 9 pagi. itu lah kami, budak baik sekaligus pintar sekali dalam alam ini. kan rajin nama dia tu kalau dah meeting betul2 pukul 9 pagi nanti. siapa orang kat dunia ni ada meeting pepagi buta.

iye lah....iye lah...ada lagi budak rajin lagi daripada kami. aku tau..aku acah je...letih tau tak, dah lah tidur lewat semalam. *yawn*. hari pun macam mendung semacam je...katakan nak hujan tak juge, tapi suasana nya je nak bagi aku pegi layan tidur ku yang ku tahu pasti indah seindah nya. pagi ini aku lupa pulak nak bawak document yang aku patut bawa ke Uni. mujur lah aku ada email kan document tu kat kawan aku...dapat aku retrieve document tu kat 'sent' folder hotmail account aku.

mungkin juga facebook ni tengah hot sekarang. pagi ni aku tengok...dah 2 orang budak uni access dia orang punya facebook. aku tengah malas lah nak layan dengan facebook ni. baru2 ni..kalau ada update untuk facebook pun dari segi....invitation untuk new application dan orang sibuk superpoking aku hahahaha. seronok tu memang lah seronok....tapi malas lah nak layan.

pagi ni...aku takde pulak duit kecik nak beli tiket bas. so aku pegi ke one of the newsstand agency yang dekat kat tempat rumah aku. mula2 aku fikir kat dia ada jual tikes bas yang jenis sehairan punya....sekali nya takde pulak...so ertinya aku terpaksa pulak pergi beli something untuk mendapat kan duit kecik. aku beli men's health magazine which comes with a bag. okay lah...dapat bag dapat jugak majalah. barang free katakan...siapa tak suka barang free ni. heheheheheh.

ini dah pukul 807am.....nampak nya matahari dah nak keluar. alhamdulilah. bejumpa lagi kat lain hari dan kat saluran sama...saluran channel 7..eeeh salah pulak.

asalam'kum :D

lai...siapa saja kawan mu di sekolah? kawan ku, doraemon, pokemon, digimon, bratz, barbie, GIJoe, power rangers

Sah....memang lah sah....aku sekarang bersyukur dah dengan apa yang ada kepada ku. im not talking how wealthy i am, how genius i am and how hensem i am....HAHAHA just kidding..im not that three lah. anywys.....aku besyukur with whom i friend with. those people who has been with me...walaupun baru jua berkenalan and lama dah bekenalan. despite how bored and unreliable i am to u guys.

u guys have helped me when im in deep shit. tatkala kepala ku berada dalam kebingungan dalam mencari jawapan. tatkala ku mencari jamban kau tunjuk kan ku dimana pintu jamban....kau bagaikan cucul-cuculan dalam hidup ku. tatkala ku mencari jalan dalam masa rumah ku blackout (kerna tidak membayar bill karan).

oh kawan, tatkala aku sunyi....kenyanyang suaramu memecah kan suasana sunyi sepi d dalam gegandang telinga. tatkala ku kehabisan topik untuk ku berbicara...aku tahu kamu akan membuat satu topik yang bernas untuk kita menyambung perbicaraan kita. tatkala aku berlawa kamu akan mengatakan aku yang aku sungguh lawa (kerna terpaksa)...memang aku respek semua kekawanku d luar sana.

kawan, geng, sahabat, konco, dan sewaktu nya...mari kita bersatu dan menyerangi genjala2 sosial yang ada d brunei. dadah....budaya lepak....syabu....semua itu kita akan hancurkan untuk selamanya. menyahut cabaran bersama! bersatu kita teguh, bercerai kita roboh...kalau roboh...dapat d usai balik, jgn khuatir.

Once u eat it, Mor....U want some MORE!!!! Kuih Mor...available in chocolate, strawberry and rambutan flavor....get it from Red Rooster!

aslamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatuh!!!! salam sejahtera kepada kamu kat luar sana. honestly, my day has been great...alhamdulilah.

this morning it clicked me, the book that i borrowed from the library was due yesterday...OH SHIT, aduh mesti tah kena late charges ni..so apakan ku buat kan, theres absolutely nothing i can do about it. aku pasrah dengan segalanya. camana boleh ku lupa pasal buku atu...coz it has been in my mind for few days before dah.....kau mau tau kenapa aku forgotten to bring the book back...coz SOMEONE decided to bring me along to get this... hahaha nda wah dibs..ikhlas and sincere brabis ku mendangani ko ke chinatown yesteraday (8th october 2007).















on the next day, which is tuesday kah? oh yeah....i got a group meeting with my fellow mates...and only 3 out of 6 came....which is always like that. we discussed a bit and done work a bit. then aku balik ke rumah around 2. sibuk2 aku d bawah, it turned out to be that dibs sedang membuat something di atas....Ina told me about it..so aku pun ke atas. rupa-rupanya c dibs sedang buat kuih mor. saja2 not for raya thought, that wat she claimed. bakal saja puasa bah hari ani, klau nda...ingin ku kan mencuba mor nya....nyaman kali ah usulnya dan baunya. this is wat the butter pure ghee for. payah2 kami mencari d china shop Yuen di china town. kali d kedai kaling.



Dibs....expression on ur face, when i said 700 words...u was like...wahahahha nda ku sangka dat i wud caught it in video wahahahha priceless babe


























neither Asmah, Dibs nor me havent actually buat kuih mor before. Asmah and Dibs just menolong menggulung kan saja. where as aku balum pernah meliat my mom buat...she does but usually she buat sendiri2 and nda asking for an extra hand. i wish aku menolong camana kan buat...tau ku caman. kan buat kuih batik? puding roti for raya lagi? malas lah ahhaha...naleh ku. banyak lagi assignment ku kan ku fikir kan...nanti tah kan buat raya tergempar kat brisbane. macam about 40 minutes to go untuk berbuka...so nda sabar kan cuba kuih mornya.

ku lihat akan pemandangan pantai....angin bertiup di wajah ku....tempat yang membuat ku selesa

mengapa kah aku baru saja sedar akan tempat ini. tempat dimana kita berdua bersama, mengisah kan akan bekal masa depan kita bersama. tempat duduknya yang ku ingat lembut dan selesa diduduki telah menjadi keras dan menyengal kan. permandangan laut dan pantai tidak lagi seindah seperti yang ku ingat di dalam ingatan ku.

mengapa? adakah saat2 sebelum ini, semua itu tidak ada tatkala ku bersama mu? adakah keberadaan mu ketika itu, membuat ku gembira dan selesa dimana saja ku berada. asalkan kamu ada disisiku?

betapa terang nya langit ketika ini, mengingat kan ku akan masa depan yang kita janjikan bersama namun sekarang di selubungi kegelapan awan hitam. membuat hati ku redup dan sedih tanpa mu. mengapa kamu harus pergi meninggal kan tatkala semuanya seakan sempurna bagi kita berdua. teringat nya ku, pemergian mu yang tidak ku sangka...kesayuan nya masih terasa

aku menandah kan tangan ku depan mata ku. tangan ku yang pernah membelai dan menyentuh mu. kelembutan pipi kamu masih terukir di tangan ku. kesedihan air mata mu masih terasa di jejari ku, tatkala kau bersedih di pangkuan ku. mengapa semua nya harus terukir kukuh dengan ku. kamu telah pergi dan tak mungkin kembali...namun kamu meninggal kan aku semua ini. sudah ku kata kan kepada kamu....kalau kamu pergi jangan sekali kali meninggal kan apa yang akan mengingat kan kamu. kamu mengatakan kembali kepada ku...kamu berjanji tidak akan meninggal kan aku. tidak kah kau tahu sekarang aku tidak sanggup menahan kesengsaraan ini. kesayuan nya bagi ku menusuk keperitan hatiku.

pangkuan mu yang tiada, aku kecarian. mengapa ko telah pergi...namun aku masih terasa akan secebis hati mu didalam hati ku masih bersama ku. tidak ku menidak kan akan pemergian mu untuk selamanya...tapi suara hatiku mengatakan kau masih berada disisiku kerana secebis hari mu di dalam hati ku masih terasa. bukan kah kita telah berbahagi hati tatkala kita berjanji akan bersama selamanya.

namun apa daya ku untuk menghalang semua ini....mungkin ini adalah suratan takdir untuk kita berdua....kita sebagai manusia hanya mampu untuk merancang kehidupan kita sebaik mungkin dan hanya Ia yang menentu kan segala. ku pasrah dengan semua ini....biar lah ku duduk di sini seketika....mengenang akan keindahan bersama mu tatkala dahulu.

---------------- Now playing: Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone via FoxyTunes

Dok gwe rasa sungguh stress.....gimana dok! tolong gwe!!!

It has been two days, seems i am finding trouble to reveal my inner thoughts. why? entah nda ku tau wang~ depressed? i kinda feeling depressed lately.....uni stuff? life dilemma? i have no idea mysef. i bought Zoolander dvd and still feeling a bit down.

kalau aku kan mempost something in my blog...surely its gonna be a serious and sad one...nda ku mau...perhaps its im no in a mood to do blog at the moment.

Someone just gave me a video about a group of guys 'did' a girl back home, coz they were talking in kedayan. the video shocked me, the girl was whimpering but her whimper kinda confuse me. is it dat she was in pain from it. and was she being raped? i really have no idea, coz in the video she did not put enuf fight to stop them. though my fren cakap dat she was being held by another boys....tapi at certain points she was just lay there doing nothing. why she did not scream and crying for help? from the sounds from the background, i heard a waves sound. kali jua, but im not entirely sure. my fren said that she and one of the guy that did her, kenalan through IM and they decided to meet up. that time he was with his frens....so somehow..gang-bang came up.

from watching that movie..honestly it has shocked me emotionally. kan bagi menangis ada jua meliat coz meliat bangsa sendiri sanggup buat perkara bayie macam atu. honestly i did not see any human in it, but i saw bunch of animals. i know it sounds rude.....tapi...jeez...kucing ku d rumah lagi inda mengamput and willing to share perempuan, there i said it. kalau binatang lagi pintar dari atu, apatah lagi durang tu. whats below animal? aku pun nda tahu.

at the moment, i just wanted to talk to someone....just wanna talk. i need someone to talk....talk is good. talk is great for ur mind i guess, with talking to someone...ur option and ur view opens up. your view of life would expand.

perhaps bekas aku meliat video atu, it pulled me down deep lagi. aiya....atau semakin lapar jua hahaaha.

Tennis....whos like bimbo? me like bimbo playing tennis

*Tina sedang mengajar Ina in tennis d UQ tennis court

this day (kan buat on something of october, tapi lupa ku brapa haribulan) anywys...i wud start this post with..today, N decided to bring us along untuk main tennis. so aku and Tina pun decided to join. as Tina has been a while dont play tennis and ME....neva play before. at 430 we play tennis..well kul 415 lah kami main since the court pun takde orang pakai at that time.



I had found out that...im so sux at tennis. tho this was my first time...perhaps play for few times would licin my skill. then Ina and Asmah came along around 5. basically we had fun fun fun

Hanging...apa yang Hanging atu? Hanging out bah~

"Main Netball? Puasa kali ah?!" kerap ku dengar orang akan berkata demikian...kenapa kan kalau puasa. that does not mean u have to stop doing sport or heavy activity. i reckon it is a matter of opinion and attitude. my opinion, kalau ia pandai bagi masa nya and know their own limit when working out (dont exhaust themself so much) boleh kali work out semasa puasa ani and play sport just before sungkai.

we supposedly play netball yesterday with a group of people. but then, only Tina, Z, Asmah, Ina, N and i could make it yesterday, so we end up played half court. nevertheless it was fun, guys. so for sungkai we decided to buka luar...buka luar was anoter story. malas ku kan ceta sini..perhaps nanti saja ku edit and put a paragraph abt it here. after bought the takeaways we made our way to home and just hanging out. lots fun that nite...lots.

Siapa ampar bekas bergambus ani? luan jua syok nya....

22 Ramadhan

Rumah Tarcoola, indah berseri,
putih warnanya, berkulat pun inda,
puasa masih ni tani ani,
apa baik krg menu berbuka?.

*this poem i got somewhere, kan ku brtau dimana i got this poem from certain blog...tapi im sure the owner of the blog inda mau leak hehehe.....

yang bawah ani aku buat sendiri hahaha..i know cawie2 pantun ku

Rumah Tarcoola megah berdiri
cantik berseri setiap masa
waktu dah pukul 12 tengah hari
anak2 daranya belum lagi terjaga (hahaha)

Kumbang pasang, kumbang terbang
sibuk celebrity dengan botox
spring tiba, bungapun mengembang
spray kan dih nyamuk2 atu dengan sheltox

Pilih pasangan, pilih yang bagus
simpan barang dalam loker
liat2 masakan d takuti hangus
terlalai akan bermain poker

Anak dara brunei, yang terindah semuanya
cun melecun rupa durang
siapa britney fan antara semuanya
pasti Ina seorang hahahah (nda paham this joke..go ask her!)

Apa ada? aku mau atu and ani....no no yang atu....dimana kan tani ani? arah 3 ambuk bah

After the movie, Z brought the 6 of us to 3 monkeys...which now ave we called it tiga ambuk cafe. kami bruneikan wang!. had nachos and blueberry brule and oh yeah...the chocolate fudge....ok lah..i woudl give 4 out of 5 rating. lupa pulak gambar the slices of cake tho. but we had a swell time over there. Z, lupa ku bawa nutella ku...c N sama jua nda membawa nutella hahaha. and aku lupa what were they talked abt tabir atu...something to do with raya kah?

the cheesecake, wat da ya called? inca gold something2....abis...surely thats the most laku ones. tapi nantilah ke sana lagi...i wanted to try that. but 2 slices of cake are so enuff for me....but we shared tho...4 orang. this time...c N glued with her magazine...almost half of the time..baca magazine atu saja ia hahahaha




ani c Z buat dedication for raya...maklum lah kan tak lama lagi anak bulan nak timbul lagi. which marked the end of Ramadhan. heheheh..nanti the festivity of raya i wud posted it up here okeh...okie dokie..in this video jua...c asmah sibuk promote her air suli, she was saying all the benefits of mineral water. maklum lah...ambassador air Suci d brunei hahahaha

Malam jumat adalah malam beramal....eeee kami late nite shopping d city!

*Video ani i took when Saadi playing one of the piano in the shop which next to rebel sport. inda ku ingat wats the name of the shop. its a music instrument shop lah. she plays quite well huh. main Beethoven kali ah, cool jua tu. bukan semua orang mampu main piano...so malam atu kami, aku and asmah main tambourine saja lah as a backup....dibs can play the piano as well...but not to extend saadi's skill kali. (dibs cakap sendiri she can play a bit saja). the rest of the gurls could be the dancer lah...eee..Asmah boleh jadi dancer kali ah...jadi sifu menari for N and Ina...aku main tambourine saja. hahaha

Pada tanggal kelmarin, which was the 6th of October 2007, The gurls and i decided to sungkai kat luar. biasa leh, kan dah hujung minggu (it was Friday, thank god!) and it was late nite shopping for the city....so we tool this chance to unwind ourselves and went for window shoping...unlike some people...beli something dang..(im talking to you, N) hahaha. i was being told that she just got her exam finished...and she treated herself with manicure and pedicure (lurus kah tu)...ok jua kan tu. nothing wrong to treat urselves when ummm..u finished with something, shall i say achieved?.

got Nasi Briyani for sungkai, and Asmah got treated (Ayam paha) by a guy from that restaurant atu...Asmah..lain kali ko belikan untuk ko...eee...ia suka ko wah tu. apa lagi, use the oppotunity to tapau nasi briyani and ayam untuk kami d tarcoola. Saadi wanted to get Torts but the kedai dat she wanted to get from, forever and ever closed down, for unknown reason. Z was having pizza with chips.

then we decided to go jalan2 and Z got back home since she was tired and all (she just got back from work) and rendezvous at Indroopily cineplex to catch some movies. c N masa ani blum lagi ikut coz she sibuk shopping sorang2. and the rest of us went to Pillow talk, Asmah wanted to get a mattress topper.



it was a quite fun nite out though...not too shabby. since it has been a while aku and the gang nda kluar friday nite to the city.

When a man and woman falls in love....they hug each other and out comes baby......are u sure that is how baby is born mommy?

sekarang ni aku tengah boring menonggeng....tertonggeng ni kira dah tahap maxima. aku sepatutnya dah tidor dan menghayat akan mimpi2 ku yang nun indah seindah nya. tapi entah mengapa ada rasa pulak nak post something non sense kali ni...so apa lagi aku layan je.

aku nak cakap tentang...orang. pelbagai orang ku jumpa selama ku hidup. orang lelaki...orang perempuan...orang dua alam...orang yang dalam keliruan (tentang dia punya naluri)...orang putih...hitam (pelbagai kaler)....orang budak sekulah uni dan segala institut....orang kedai...orang..hodoh..orang cantik....pokok nya pelbagai lah orang yang pernah ku serempak kat dunia ni. orang2 je yang belum ku terjumpa...alah orang2...orang putih bagi nama..scarecrow tu.

memang lah lumrah dia orang ni pelbagai ragam. ada yang baik...jahat...bodoh..pintar..sombong bagaikan nak mati pun ada. tapi itu dah kebiasaanya kat dunia ni yang mana kita berkongsi mendiami.

orang lelaki ni, dikatakan datangnya dari dunia mars dan perempuanya pulak datang nya dari planet venus. aku mahu tahu....dari mana durang taruk statement sebegini ni. adakah patut taruk lelaki kat planet yang datangnya dan yang didiami oleh makhluk teruk (monster) alah macam alien2 yang kena gambar kan hendak memusnah kan barang je kerja durang. pepatah perkataan ni...guys from mars and girls from uranus..ee salah venus...hanya mengambar kan dunia dan perspektif bagi dua kaum ni tak lah sama. walaupun kita ni dalam kategori manusia....bagi orang putih dia..homo sapien ye? tapi cara pemikiran kita adalah tidak sama sekali sama. kalau sama...kalau lelaki tu pemikiran nya sama macam perempuan, agak nya lelaki tu selembut sutera manakala kalau perempuan sebegitu...perempuan itu besar kemungkinan sekeras enamel gigi manusia.

tapi dengan kuasa Allah maha penyayang dan berkuasa di alam ni....mahupun dua kaum ni berlainan...tetapi boleh hidup seiringan. bagaikan theori kekunci. dua2 integrate bersatu dan mesra hahahaha.

kalau begitu....

apa pulak halnya dengan orang yang di panggil kaum homoseksual?

biar lah aku berenti kat situ dan sambung pada post yang lain pulak. terima kasih

Bulan Ramadhan adalah bulan yang ke tujuh dalam takwim hijrah....muharam, safar, march, april, may, june.....eh salah apa kan?!?!!? *BINGUNG

aduh......sayu menyayu sudah terasa akan hati ku yang nun jauh di perantauan. kira perantauan kan aku ni yo?!?...insya allah nda ku kan menangis...(yes i do cry) pada raya di perantauan kali ini. mungkin kalau kediaku mendengar takbir raya kat brunei...i would most likely to pacah...entah ah...even d masjid lagi ku mendgr takbir dah sayu ku...apa lagi masa ani, d perantauan...aduh aduh aduh....mas gimana nih sih, nanti tangisannya kuat dan nggak bisa brenti.
tapi ku tahu aku nda lama lagi kan balik ke brunei. so with that bear in my mind, time would pass me alrite hehehe.
oh yeah..untung my sis over kat Kuala Lumpur...balik ia this 10/10. dats when my 'queen of my heart' hari jadi...~ibu oh ibu kau ratu hatiku, bila ku berduka, engkau hiburkan/gembira selalu~...kurang ajar budak tu..adeke dia panggil ibu die engkau...nah kau *tempeleng satu das!

so i should give her a call on that day hehehehe liat lah camana. miss miss her very much. im not a mommy's boy. siapa jua hahahaha

got a new shade...lawa jua lah...not too big/wide and not too small...its alrite for me...thanx to Bu lati kerna memilih kan untuk saya. kerana engkau aku semakin hensem wahahahahah jgn jeles. nanti tah ku mempost gambat new shade atu while im wearing it.

am i gonna talk abt raya in this post? or nanti saja...when the day actually came? ok lah nanti lah.

my days seems busy with uni stuff lately.....aaaa lawa nya...merdu orang mengaji on the radio...usually the play this tape (this shud be tape coz dari dulu dah ia mngaji...naleh kali ah..sama algi the tone tu and pitch)...rite after orang sembahyang terawih. ani dah pukul 9 malam d brunei..waktu abis orang trawih. hahaha aku kan cakap pasal trawih

let see...terawih ada lah sembahyang sunat yang hanya dilakukan semasa bulan ramadhan..xclusively for ramadhan people! jangan tah kan memandai sembahyang terawih di bulan2 yang lain....karang ada sembahyang benar2 nda ia kan sembahyang, memandai jua eh ahahha. anywys....its 20 rakaat, which means 10 kali salam. dulu when i was a lil...lil cute boh hahaha...it seemed that sembahyang terawih was an awful lot to do...macam sparuh pun nda terbala. but the time when i was late teens. like 19, its just came to me...for goodness sake its only 10 kali sembahyang thats it...macam sembahyang subuh 10 kali saja.

then there is the question of the speed of it. certain masjid and imam would like to menghayat kan spenuh nya terawih di bulan ramadhan as if, it was the last ramadhan...which is very good...tuma'ninah pun ada. but some...well segelintir lah....ya allah..warp speed kali ah d pakai nya (jgn tanya aku kat mana durang taruh tuma'ningah durang. aku pun tak tau kemana ilang dia). macam the master's whip was very behind them (quote from lord of the ring) hehehe. ada this satu masjid....laju yo sembahyang nya....aku pun nda macam terbubut sembahyang nya, terkumat kamit dah ku membaca bacaan nya...tapi ternyata...imamnya bukan sebarang imam. skulah ugama mana ia skulah ingin ku tau.
hehehe just kidding. tapi benar yo..laju...naleh ku after sembhyang ah

Ramadhan is the time for food...food yang jarang d buat akan timbul. bahkan itu saja...makanan yang seperti makanan biasa akan di beri nama yang lain..pebaik makanan atu rupanya sama. di tanya apa special nya....sama...rasa nya saja lain. how can the taste be differnt if the indgredients are the same.

food on out table...table for 8 people....most of the time, the whole table wont fit what food my mom served. atu dulu, when everyone was at home and sungkai bersama2. now, me and sis are over sea. 2 of my oldest sib are working so probably sungkai luar. tinggal brapa saja tu drumah. so probably nda semeriah as dulu, maklum aku nda ada. aku kali ah penyeri segala seri EWAH!

atu saja for now..kan tdor..esok nak bangun awal...alrite see ya baibai......

Shannon Elizabeth....Sexy? Hot? Slutty? hahaha

History of my life in 2001/2002

i still remember when my last grandmother passed away...somewhere in 2001/20002. we were just came back from friday mass prayer at Masjid Bunut. doesnt it funny how i really still remember that we actually turned into our driveway coming back from mosque. as usual, our kitchen was a bit quite since my mom was away to Singapore with my Granny. i made my way to the tv room and turned it on...i think it was mtv...just checking out whats the new video clip out there back then. then the phone rang.
i picked it up...not sure where the others were...it was my oldest brother. he said through the phone he wanted to talk to my dad. but he told me the news first...Granny passed away. i did not go break into tears at first...i just went blank...all i could think in my mind was "She's gone...this is serious...gonna get my dad" yelled for him and gave him the phone. on my way back to the tv....i knew my mind keep telling shes gone...shes gone. but im still blank, as if i did not know what to do. shud i cry my heart out? cry out loud? brokedown onto the floor? no i did not.
when i reached in front of the tv, i could hear my dad talking some stuff about my granny had passed away. if im not mistaken he was calming my mother down through the phone.
what i saw on the tv, not one visual images registered into my mind. coz...somehow my mind has gone hectic with 'things'. then after a while, it came clear to me...shes definitely gone and i wont see her ever again. i cried.....

all this time, i thought she neva cared about me so much...cause there are other of her grandchildren that she might preferred over me. after my family and i moved to Bandar, it was not that often we came to visit her. as she lived with my aunt's family back in KB.
she did, she cared about me, when i was little then...she kept advice about my health...cause i was big back then. there was this time, when i did not come to visit her for a long long time, when i finally visited her...she hugged me. i could not recalled what she said to me....but i definitely can still feel her warmth through her hug. *miss her

shes the only grand parents that i got to know in my life...cause others unfortunately taken away before i knew the world.

why i would talk about this here? i really do not know...perhaps..do u still remember that during this holy month of Ramadhan, there were certain days or the whole month...those has passed away..ur loved ones would released to the world and visit the living. who knows.

but all i wanted to say here...thats the reality of the world...we welcome our new loved ones and there would be a time where we lost our loved ones. not just im telling you this...im also reminding myself, to spent your life...spent the best time if its possible with your loved ones. insyallah when you look back, rather than shedding tears....you would smiling.

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Ooh...rambut mu ikal, bermisai pendek dan berseluar khaki

ni aku tengah hendak cakap tentang vain stuff...its not a manly thing to talk abt hahaha...who cares...as if i got macho reputation. anywys....most of the time i hate my hair...just the bentuk...i am torn between kan memanjang kan biar sexy macam tarzan malaya...atau gondol macam kojak. tapi aku dah gondol early this year. and i dont think gondol is for me, coz i love to be a bit of fuzzy hahahaha apakan. any bruneians out there kat brisbane who actually CAN let me emphasize here...CAN cut hair...say aye!



lagipun its about less than 2 months that im going to fly back home...so sana ku gunting saja insya allah. kaling style kali ah. malas ku kan ke salon lagi. mahal hahaha skadar 12 ringgit. lingka brapa jua kan..5? or 7? it has been a while i dont go to them. special kali ah...ber aircond jua tu if compare with those salon. kekadang...durang pasang orang mengaji lagi tu if hari jumat. brtahu aku...salon d brunei atu mana yang pasang lagu orang mengaji?....




now wat can i do...just bersabar saja til i got back home...tapi kekadang envy jua ku meliat rambut orang ber shape and pendek..eee...bertudung ku karang...kalau orang tanya...bahapa ku buang tabiat makai tudong....brtahu sempena ramadhan saja hahahaa...

Sesungguh nya cinta ku hanya fizikal....Nah ko pergi jauh!!

assalamualaikum warahmatullahiwabarakatuh sekarang ni aku tgh berehat kat atas katil ku yang tilam nya ntah apa ke benda...terpuruk tgh2...ada ke gitu. anywys...aku nak reflect sedikit tentang hari ku yang sungguh ntah2. let see...i woke up around 15 to 8am. if not because of assignment which by the way have to hand in tomoro petang, i got up and on my way to uni str8 after dat. jgn loyar buruk..of course i took shower before that, luan jua kan down under kediaku ani. masih ku kebruneian kali ah....menjaga kebersihan, membanggakan negara....apakan, anywhooots...seperti biasa kat uni...penuh keboringan...nothing exciting hehehe. oh yeah aku jumpa DK tgh mempersiap kan dia punye presentation, with her mate. then balik....dalam kepenatan yang penuh ampar dan lapar. after that too fatigue to do anywork...so aku pun berehat til sungkai. boring jua ari aku atu ah....

dah sehari berlalu lepas dah...nda ku kan deny, masih ku menunggu jawapan nya as she promised the day before she wud talked abt it today. but i havent got any message from her. it was not that i expect any positive thing nor negative thing from her message...coz i have prepared myself the worse. as i said...if she said yes alhmdulilah...if no, just move on *sob* hahahah.
i talked abt it with my fren over MSN, she said that is a good thing...good thing?! apa yang bagus nya kalau ia nda msg aku, aku tanya ia. she said...if she has not message you that means the girl would not reject kediaku and shes stil think abt it...which means i got chance....
if dat were true alhamdulilah...but pretty sure she wud not say yes...shes hoping with time passing by...this 'thing' will fade away as if it never happened.
though i am in this situation, somehow masih ku manage to smile. if this wud happened to me years back, i wud regard this as the end of the world hahaha. but now....alhamdulilah...im happy with wat i have decided to risk and decision i made. perhaps.....heey! aku mature dah wahahah....i am so mature haha tekarang wahaha....

just around 4pm when i was doing nuthing, i decided to do bit of youtube'ing...somehow i ended up youtube'ing catwalk. syok kali ah meliat wat they come up with coming season...then i click on the men runway....jeez they just weird...some of em are quite good looking (typical looks for runway model)...tapi some of the outfits macam .....out of this world...when i said that i dont mean lawa brabis...i meant macam who the heck comes up with the design and stuff...D&G lawa2 baju nya tadi...macam smart and rugged brabis.
i thought those men model walk rugged kali...macam timpang sorang 2 jalan. hahaha...burut? nda jua burut...i wud like to describe wat burut is...somehow...inda ku ingin berigali kali ah pemikiran ku hahaha....the thing abt runway, to me at least..if nda lawa baju nya...orang yang memakai atu lawa hahahah...so things tend to cancel each other out haha...kalau dua2 lawa...hancuuuussss!
i like to watch runway...sometimes well mostly half of the time...they integrate the fashion runway with music as well art...which aku suka dua2 nya. i dont mind watching Fashion tv. lagipun syok kali ah mencaci those model yang nda berupa model untuk ku ahahha. bedosa saja kediaku ah.


thanx to my fren all way in Brunei Darussalam...coz memberitahu a id of a song which aku mencari sekian lama nya. Bagaikan langit by Steve from indonesian idol hehehe and to fren upstairs....mendownload kan lagu 'cinta di akhir garisan' hehehe aku panggil ko mami lanun saja ah...sbab ko distribute illegal song..macam lanun cetak rompak ah hahahahaha

done a bit of my assignment which going to be hand in like lusa. so far i have done 300+ words and 900+ to go. at the moment i am so sleepy and its only 930 pm baru...naleh ku eeh. so better hit the sack quite awal tonite and tomoro bangun pagi and go to uni awal to finish up the assignment. in this post im not going to talk about assignment. i want to talk one of my love at first sight way back in my childhood. this involved a boy and a tiger...

i still remember way back then...my bro have borrowed a collection comic book from his friends. and one of them is calvin and hobbes. entah ah...it was love at first sight. a kid with black and red stripes tshirt with black short and his stuff tiger which to him only able to understand what the tiger is saying. syok kali ah the comic strips. durang dua ani keep having love hate relationship...sometimes they are loving sick each other...but other times...they would choke and kill each other. it was one of the most original thing for me....sesuuuuka sangat.

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